HOWEDY nooner,
Sounds like you need anti psychotic medications and long term therapy.
"Noon Cat Nick" <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
> wrote in message
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>> I've lost my mother and five RL friends in the past ten years. The
latest
>> I found out about less than a fortnight ago.
>>
>> Sometimes, though, I forget.
>>
>> I'll read or hear something, or think of something, and I'll say to
>> myself, "I should remember to tell that to N---- the next time I talk
>> to...no, wait, N---- died some years ago."
>>
>> In that same period of time, I've lost three cats. Still, I forget.
I'll
>> look in the back yard or out the window for one of them, and then
>> remember, "No, Simba/Christian/Bijou has been gone for X years."
>>
>> It's been happening more often recently. After finding out Gina died,
I
>> think to talk to my mom about it, then recall that Mom's been dead for
>> almost two years. Or I'll feel strongly the need to talk to Gina
about it,
>> then right away feeling ridiculous because Gina is never coming back
>> either.
>>
>> Those moments for me are terrible to endure. To think a loved one
still
>> alive and then suddenly remember they'd passed away long ago...in
those
>> moments, that loved one is more alive than they ever were, and at
the same
>> time more dead then they will ever be.
>>
>> I'm afraid to sleep anymore. My dreams are filled with those moments
>> nowadays. Then I wake up, and everything I see is one more thing I'm
going
>> to lose.
Jerry Howe,Re:
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